I feel so strange.. .i don't feel sure about anything in my life, not with my friends, not with my career, not with my relationship, not with my family. The only thing that i have for sure in my life is my faith, ahd i hope it will help me to walk through this.
My older brother is leaving to another country, far away from here, and i feel so sad about that. I don't want him to leave, i know i'm gonna miss him like hell, i know i will miss his laugh, his hughs, his intelligence, his comments, his trust, all of him. But i also know that this change is very important to him, he needs a change for himself, his life and his career, he needs a new enviroment, new friends, a new love and not that stupid bitch.
My youngest brother is so sad about his situation, he misses that little boy that is like his son, he misses that woman that he loves so much, it's so unfair that he fell in love with her 'cause her situation, and i know he deserves so much more than that. I wish i could do something for him...
My family isn't ok right know, i don't feel good with my parents, sometimes they say things that hurts me so much, that hurts my trust and my heart...
My relationship isn't the same... he knows that i need him to feel the same that i used to feel, in all the sense of the phrase, but he can't give it to me.. if this goes on like it's doing, i know that by the time he feels all right i won't need it anymore, and all will be maybe more cold than it is now.. i don't know where is this going. There are so many things that are not the same that they used to be. I don't know if it's evolution or they just died. I don't know if it's for good or for bad, i don't know if they will come back or this is a new age of the relationship. All i know is that i don't feel good, i don't feel happy like i did a few months ago.
And at least but not less, my career.. it's so messed up, i hate it, i hate my school, i hate the people that studies there, i can't stand them!!! I hate them, they're so hypocrities, so fake, they're such bad friends, they just proved me that this past "trimestre", i don't want to see them, to talk to them, to be their friend again.. i don't want to go back to that school, i want to work with animals, that's my dream, too bad that i discovered so fucking late!!!
Ahg, all my life is so crappy right now...
My older brother is leaving to another country, far away from here, and i feel so sad about that. I don't want him to leave, i know i'm gonna miss him like hell, i know i will miss his laugh, his hughs, his intelligence, his comments, his trust, all of him. But i also know that this change is very important to him, he needs a change for himself, his life and his career, he needs a new enviroment, new friends, a new love and not that stupid bitch.
My youngest brother is so sad about his situation, he misses that little boy that is like his son, he misses that woman that he loves so much, it's so unfair that he fell in love with her 'cause her situation, and i know he deserves so much more than that. I wish i could do something for him...
My family isn't ok right know, i don't feel good with my parents, sometimes they say things that hurts me so much, that hurts my trust and my heart...
My relationship isn't the same... he knows that i need him to feel the same that i used to feel, in all the sense of the phrase, but he can't give it to me.. if this goes on like it's doing, i know that by the time he feels all right i won't need it anymore, and all will be maybe more cold than it is now.. i don't know where is this going. There are so many things that are not the same that they used to be. I don't know if it's evolution or they just died. I don't know if it's for good or for bad, i don't know if they will come back or this is a new age of the relationship. All i know is that i don't feel good, i don't feel happy like i did a few months ago.
And at least but not less, my career.. it's so messed up, i hate it, i hate my school, i hate the people that studies there, i can't stand them!!! I hate them, they're so hypocrities, so fake, they're such bad friends, they just proved me that this past "trimestre", i don't want to see them, to talk to them, to be their friend again.. i don't want to go back to that school, i want to work with animals, that's my dream, too bad that i discovered so fucking late!!!
Ahg, all my life is so crappy right now...
All i have is God...
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Pero ps yo te quiero :D y el viernes vamos a caminar de esta forma y hablar de esta forma
Pues te diré, después de caminar por la línea descubrí que se borró pero no por sí misma, o por algo ajeno a mí, sino que yo mismo la borré.
Tu quisieras estar con animales, yo con las letras.
un saludo y me saludas a tu hermano :)
"Nada puede alejarnos más de lo que queremos que nosotros mismos."
Esa es mi frase.
mmm pues pinches frases tan piteras tiene ese wey, por eso lo dejaste, te felicito.
ese wey parasito no te iba a llebar a ningun lado.
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